thank you fears

Shared focus
Young master ,,,when wild horses could not stop you …. When the want is so strong that the thoughts about all the DOWNSIDE just can not live in your mind ,,, they are NON FACTORS …. In fact you ,,, I fleft to your own thoughts ..DO NOT EVEN FIND THEM or think about them naturally …
This is important for the WISDOM of family who care for you , frinds who love you etc ,,all want you safety and continued presence in their own lives ,,their own GREEDY desire to have you around almost like you were a PET … they would love to keep you safe like a baby …. Sure ababy who is able to make its own money has its own security blanket of investments … but in their life ….. As you are … they DESCRIBE TO YOU THE DOWN SIDE of your dreams .
And are you LISTENING TO THEM and their good advise ? Good …. Yes good that is the evidence trail that YOUR STATED ….WANTS …… are not your real wants.
What drives you when you are alone , is what is important what you willl take responsibility for …. Is your real want … would you attempt that DANGEROUS TRICK ON THE SKATEBOARD if there was no one around to rush you off to the hospital ? To save your life to take care of you while you healed from the BROKEN BONES ? Would you atempt it knowing that your body would lie there in pain in the sun BAKING without the ability to crawl to get a drink of water until ,,,the PEACE of TAO granted you the FLOOD OF DEATH HORMONES ,,,, and you slipped into SHOCK the transition state ,, would you still attempt ..that death defying feat or trick …?
Well I guess that would be considered a WILD HORSES COULD NOT HOLD YOU BACK ..
When the OPPURUTUNITY ,,, is so great the business risks it ALL ..for that next HIT … puts up everything on WHIM HOPE AND A PRAYER , he is left having to do battle in REAL time …the QUANTUM balance the effects of the OBSERVER as Wigner put it in his response to Borhn’s response to Shroedingers mental experiment about the cat . http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Schr%C3%B6dinger's_cat
When the focus ..of your thoughts is not about SAFETY ….. But yet safety is a part of the WHOLE ,,not as an aspect of fear but as an aspect of DOABLITY ….for when you are inline with your wants a VIBRATIONAL MATCH to the want then the flow of the TAO , carrys you down stream gently …the FEAR is GONE.
http://www.instinctualism.org/5steps.html there is a changing ….. Those thoughts about the RIGHT way are replaced with the COMFORTABLE feeling of NOW THE TIME IS RIGHT …. The death dfying feat is not a factor of death any more as it is jus the next natural step ….
The factors of learning have come together slowly to the point that you could not stop from taking the next step because the next step is natural . AND THERE IS NO FEELING OF risking IT ALL . And this time from where you are now to this time of NATURAL STEP
Is the PROCESS of living ,,this is the joy of living ,, arriving at the destination is not where the fun is ,,the fun is ,, in getting ready for the VACATION …. For even the vacation is not a POSTCARD EVENT ..something all done which you can hold in your had it is a reality of changes and contrasts , for when you get there and you find it is RAINING …. How will you feel ,,,, how will you deal with the PROCESS … when you arrive at HOPE TONW in the Bahamas … looking for some good open ocen waves and some of the TUBES to ride available on that tiny little quiet island town …. And you find NONE . What will you do ?
And if you found the tubes ..well you would paddle out and RIDE of course …
The wisdom ,,of fear ,, is important ,, it is the barometer of your current skill set . If your want is so great that you continue your learning process , and pass the fear , because your KUNG FU … your skill set is so natural that the next step is not one of doubt but of natural action within the FLOWW OF THE WAVE .. Riding the face of the wave .. In the now .
Surfing a sport I failed at … wanting enough to learn to do right …. I started at MONSTER HOLE … instead of the baby steps of the curls of south beach then .. HAULOVER BEACH ..then … up coast . And over the course of a few trips and being dragged oput of the ocean I gave up on that WANT … which was a want I did not want enough to take the time to live the PROCESS …. Of baby steps . For a baby is closer to the groudn when it falls it does not hurt so much . And as it gains skill it and it is also growing it walks naturally ….
Ohm the experience of your now ,, this time/space event is a lot liike SURFING …. The vastness of the unthinkable toa ,,,, is expressed in the tip top of the wave being blown off by the wind flalling off back into the toa of a breaking curling being re-ABSORBED by the TOA after the POTENTIAL OF EXPERIENCE Has be expressed … and you just ride the face of the expression of the WHOLE VASTNESS OF ENTIRE ocean ,, you need the whole ocena of possible hurrincaines in the sdistoance ,, blue northern winds which shifted to the East North East ….. Etc etc etc . so that you could use the tiny little face of that wave for your board .. While at the same time countless other surfers are riding USING only the space of their board full of water … all in the 1 giant BODY of toa of water connected world wide …. And you use that little expression of CHI or energy ..for the experience of living ..
And you can start of driven by wild horses ,,, and get your head bashed over and over on to the board ,,, snf in your stubborn determination to be what you are not ready for …you stand and tumble and crash ,,, your neck bent as you meet the rocks below the air pushed out of your lungs ,,,the blackness the last memory ….
Yep that is your FREE choice ,,,, or the enjoyment of learning the TAO ….. The ZEN the kung fu ,,, the PROCESS of becoming so good you just move onwards and onwards like it is antural next step . But what do you want ..the MAJIC TO HAVE IT ALL NOW … of the reality that living is the ride of the face of the wave . Understanding the changes of the individual wave ,, the wind that day ,, the desgn of the bottom over which you are riding whih is effecting the wave itself ….
The fear balance of the TAO ass it realtes to that WANT ….. That fear that stops you from letting htw WILD HORSES drag you out … has its place in the ying and yang of expeince …
So a part of me wants to … FORCE my PORCESS of building the http://www.instinctualism.org/id61.html the life Style … to move on to have more topics to write about etc etc …. when in fact the the next natural step is ,,, a chicken coop . ? ? ?