give me liberty or give me pussy

Give me liberty or give me pussy

Gotta FUEL the readership thru SELLING sex…… I told myself phil no more writing till you gget yourself out of this FUNK …. But I gotta HONOR a fallen friend

Give me liberty or give me death ,, said his note as it ws told to me by a mutual friend an hour ago ….. give me liberty or give me death ,, I have no where else to point this gun than at myself any more , I did all the fighting I could I tried all the right things and it all turned out wrong , and some how I was the one at blame …… on and on and it turns out in his own CONFUSED AND CONQUERED way he killed himself for his kids

Well I have known this guy since I arrived and started fishing for blue crabs he was a crab customer then and became a window customer later …. So I have a good 15 years of freindhsip with him , he has 2 divorces we got real tight or atleast did much deepere comparative talkings as he entered his 2nd and I was in my 3 rd divorce . he has kids with each wife , so do I …. And he got one of the first copies of my book back when I was printing it and glueing it at home …… we have had lots of braod ranging talks …

Now my friend was my age a trust fund person whose folks still live , he was the name at the company dad long retired , the company run mainly by professional managers …. Life was comfy …so $$$$ did not buy happiness ,,, sure it paid for his fishing trips around the world benn there done that life style …. It made sure his ex wives and kids were still comfortable it made sure his girlfriend and her kid ( his adoptive kids after 2 years of relationship ) were comfy and free to enjoy life ….

How can I start this in fact it was his last story last week or so that had set me off really I could not HEAR any more ..( maybe that is why I have meanfested this ear ache I keep telling myself ) I could fell the DEATH of dreams in him and was even noticing it in myself …. The trap of COMFORT of lifestyle of family …. And the INSTINCTUAL knowing that family is what really gives life it’s FLAVOR and the basis of family is the women from which family is BORN …( EVE ? no not Eve , but female human who to oftenis TAINT”D by the spirit of Eve myth )

The straw that broke the back ..the expression of how twisted humanity has become , I too have played a part in the FAIRY TALE ESCAPE of BDSM ….. sexual recreation gone extreme grasping at straws in the confusion …. His girl of f ew years calls and says do not come over jr. is sick with a stomach flu I do not want you to catch it ….. he ignores that and comes over later after work any way , onlyt to find he in the bedroom with some kid he recognized from the place she works ( she is working to kill time and feel free ) ..the kid tied to the bed posts ….. nude gaged blind folded with a cock cage on his dick and clamps on his nipples she is dressed to the nines in DOMnatirix grabe and STONED to the gills …… and he just leaves ……….

Next day she is on the attact talking about his work schedule and changes in their sex life ….. twisiting and manipulating like any CRIMINAL DOES … the jails are full of innocent people … ohh I break the drug laws because of my derpresion … yeah law is law …. You still broke the law . I do not deny the system or life sucks but …law is law … hey girls ….you always are in charge of sex actually not us you have the YES OR NO if we act like animals it would land us with a DOMESTIC RAPE CHARGE ….. if girlie wants me she starts the activity if she is more involved in her gym memrship or going shooping based upon my finnicaial support of her and her kdis life ….. etc etcetc … if that is why sex DECAYED it was not because of him he had to jack off …more than fuck her for months and months ….. it is fucking insane I have writtena bout this shit years ago …. I am tired of ..he too

Actually when we got done talking a few weeks ago he ..was doing that LAUGH because if he did not laugh he would cry or go postal .. even though I know my friend has the weapons to go postal …. That I did not expect ..even going postal on himself .

His TRAP of $$$$ …… we talked about my ideas yet the responsibility to everyone in his family including his honor of his father the company his kids etcetcetc …… kept him from chcucking it al a few years while dating before getting hooked up with this good girl friend …. And starting a newer family unit life was OK … she had some residual drug issues that crept up every now and again revolving from her own family stress that forced to hide in drug use ….

Ohh my friend ,,,, drank but knew it onlymade him sicker …. He was not like the old man who could just drink his scotch and go golfing and solve all of lifes problems . … he did the ANTI DEPRESSANATS … but all of them made him feel like a zombie ….. his trust in talk therapy ened in last marriage counseling sessions and that divorce …. So truly my friend HAD TRIED HIS BEST been there done that ….

He saw no where to fight any more …… no battle grounds he be victorius on except the continueing of cash flow and that was on auto pilot any way ..then there had been the issue of his kids from the first marriage already now tasting the DIS – illusionment of life ,, their own love lives gone sour over and over ,, their own careers not whatwas expected or dreamed of …. A bit of financial stress …. The next set of kids were in that stage of DIVIDED between mom and dad ,,, he totally understood me and my choices to avoid the fight over the kids , but the his mom would hav none of that and fought with the ex and the exp in laws … and the kids …the kids ..no one really thinks about the kids …. He was like a tool of his own mother when it came to control of the grand kids ….

INSANIITY ….

So in not having a war to fight a place to ain his gun any more he turned it on himself , I can see that now he could not live having to drink any more do anti depressant ..? DATE ? ohhh my lord you must be kidding …just go fishing .. he had already coaught everything every where there was no more passionin that … and welll if he was gone his own estate I am sure is still worth a pretty penny evne in theis terrible market , his trust money will get diveided up betweent he kdis I am sure … and the other $$$ he would idely spend tooo would go to his kids INSTEAD of some EVE …..

I gotta give this dude HONOR ……

The confuse and conquer system says on TV all the time woryya bout terrorism ,,they killd 5 000 people 10 years ago …… 34 , 598 people killed them selves in 2007 now that is successful suicides 10 times that amount of people tried in their confuse and CONQUERED state but failed and accepted ..culturing submission by MEIDCATION … death of the spirit … so what if 35 THOUSAND a year actually do die ,where is the REAL THREAT …where is the real TERRORISM ? abroad or at home in the home ?

( so after 10 years we have 350 THOUSAND war causilites vs 5 from al qudea and Taliban ,,, and the rates for women is now the growth industry for mental health prescriptions. )_