The NLP of her clotis

The NLP of her clitoris

Young master in fact two you , it has been like almost 2 years since I have the pleasure to talk with you guys about your lives , and to encounter two of you in my daily travels in one day was most cool ,,,, to address here the 1 whose background with Anthony Robbins Training your understanding of NLP of mental states etc ,,, why do you ignore that when it comes to girls , I hope I was able to open you mind to how your mind states get altered by the flood soxual hormones that rush thru your viens when you find the BAIT sexy ….no do not get trippy aboput what sounds like anger it is only to get you to think , but I write BAIT , and I mean to spark the thoughts of MANIPULATIONS ,,,,, understanding then the subconcciuos actions of both you and her , and how they do not serve ,,,, they do not serve as I again brought you back to observing the facts of your life dating to date ,,, with your mom and dad , and the familys you have observed …. So why not get ANGER . if the anger will hekp you commit to changes ?

But back to finginering that girl for 20 minutes and she not CUMMING , ok dipshit remember mental states and how important they are in the expression of living , deep in her was confusions … yes I betcha she was enjoying your skill and attempts , her wetness and sounds of pleasure was proof ,,, but you also said she had a good buzzzzz on , ok so her body was altered and maybe have been numbed …. Her mind is also numbed …. Her deepest reason for sexually wanting you a stranger to her so quickly is evidence of her own sexuall frustrtations …. Probably in her mind she had ,,, NEGATIVE expectations of you and herself ….. thus blocking her totall relaxtion .

Now to you 19 and you got soft during a blow job ….. hmmm it is like pulling teeth to get a male to ADMIT ….. to admit his won stress for you view it as weakness when in fact it is not your fault , you the what looks like from the outside is the consummate BAD BOY but in you is the nice guy ,,, so in that car with a girl who attracted you deeply who you had know for a half hour before becoming sexuall , part of your good man was ,,,, saying this is to fast …. In that she did not fully cummmm you felt that you had not done your job ,,, you felt guilty …. And the constant programming that describes oral sex as a form of INSULT …… just compounds a deep mental confusion and the resulting softness , lucky you did use your mind , your menstl state you you realized it , you brought yourself back into a PORNO state of mind where you could insult a girl who your DEEPEST inner DNA animal found worthy of protection and life long commitment to … respect and love …. Thus deep sexual connection and recreation .

But you brought her into the vision of a slut in a porn that you were using and you were able to regain full hardness and girth and give her the milk of sperm she was sucking so hard to produce , ( which she then spit out like it was poiosing ,,, confusing isn’t it the compounding of this event is what is also fueling that softness , because that was not the first time you had the … INSUTL of having your sperm treated like it was poisin ) YET SHE WANTS TO BE responsible for making you cumm with her mouth ,,, a very confusing activity for her and you …. Full of social expectationa dn programming ,,, why do girls think sperm is POISIN ? only reason is the repeated idea and social conditioning of peer groups ….so you got your rocks off she felt proud ,,, she enjoyed a good fingtering but you did not get the pride of feeling her cummmm

Well young master , tell me abouthow the mind and programming comes into play?

Now to you my friend , I have known you since you were in grade school now the fine young man , the future mental health professional the thinker and infinte traveler of the mind ……… and again with girl troubles ,,,, the eventual ,,, became the event while you were having cooffe with me , she broke up with , you ,,, you did not break with her ,,,, because you do love her , but the unalbity of you two to really understand the deepest motives of each makes really commucating impossible ,,, sure both of you are schooled in commucation like no other generation before … AND STILL IT FAILS …… why Mr. Samrt Guy ? why ,,, why ,,, why …. You do love her but she wants something else , not real male love but a fairy tale that you can not realy deeply understand ! …. And she says that you do not feel like she feels CORRECT ,, SHE HIT THE NAIL ON THE HEAD ! , she says that I am RIGHT ,, she does not feel or think like you do , we are different and not supposed to intearcat like the fairy tale model ! that you are learning to promote in Universtiy ,,, yes you will help others live in desperation their whole life , treating the sym[ptoms that I am treating by dicussing the root pPROBLEM ,,,, the confusion of male/female relationship stress , that you I know have been living thru since you were like fucking 12 ….. just a fucking chick magnet .and it failed and failed and failed to the point where you honestly stoped trying to hard .. the expectation of failure is ingrained so deeply ! NUT WITH GOOD !!!! REASON . because the fairy tale is a fiary tale .

Love is that deep truest male feelings that I know you harbor …. And I know that you understand the ideas of my theory yet ,,, again SOCIAL PROGRAMING , living in the world of SHOULDS ,,, serving two masters …. The expectations of others and the deepest INTUITITION your DNa talks to you with ….. ahhhh so you are coming up to visit the compound huh? Most cool , I will love to show you it , when it is done the years of theory needs to end ,,, and me your suuragute Uncle has to move away to do it …. So you can have a NEW UNIVERSITY of relationship study and actually potentically realy aid the patients of your future , as you say , mental healt is a JOB SECURUTY industry ! aaaaaaahhhh throw the rock into the AIR ,, the facts of the law of averages , the build up of relationship stress finaaly expressed in silent depreation zand meantal ikkness tress and addiction ,,, and confused self abusive treatment of ones self…. Peace young masters ,,, wow to meet tow of you in one day both again with girls troubles like always !( yes and it is nice to hear that you both have been secretly reading my stuff on occasion ….. thinking but NOT COMMITING )

a bed is for more than just sleeping

A bed is for more than fucking

Young master that soft thing called bed is the door to oppurutunity . a door to dreams and adventure ,,, oh yes I am sure the sensation of thrusitn your cock in and out of a naturally wett hot pussy is a dream , hearing her respond controlling that wiggleing puppy ass a you fuck her is adventure but I am talking about something else that has to call you from the day before for it to be something that will become reality …. A GOAL

Now I am all about making the sex part of that goal , the effect of the 3 sisiter will give you better sex since you will not … slip down the slope of the I LOVE YOU SLAVE , of sourse you willl love each of the sisters each of your wives each in her own way for her own provate spirit , but but the dynamic of having three , when there is one 1 hard cock means that a certain amount of female NATURE , of friendly competition slips into her life which actually will become a sub concicuos goal on her part to stay healthy not focus on problems and UN REALIZED EXPECTATIONS which leads to expressions of drpressions that can take the form of pain ,,, the body talking to her .. telling her something is wrong …. The competition is so good for you and her …

Now the goal is to best the best a man can be ,,, it is the competition with yourself … since we are deeply solitary animals us males ,,, yes we are social also , but do not ignore that solitary male DNA aspect …expressed in the evidence of my territory is richer and safer than his territory ,,, yet when the girls has much stalbity to choose from well they will then choose from the heart and by the image , the sexual attraction factor of pretty ….all good things that keep sharp . sure when you create the compound some of the girls may in the beginning have to hibernate to re-center themselves and their lives to re-program themselves , but after that period while they are returing into the world and thinking with expanding and relaxed eyes and understanding you again will be in competition with the males of the world ,,,,, SHE IS NOT YOUR … I LOVE YOU .. SLAVE either . it is freedom of choice . and if you love her you would be happy for her no maltter what she may choose al long as it is not done manipulatively ,, in other words she is not hiding and lieing ….

Like the female gorilla , can leave the territory at any time and just wander off into the jungle to meet and other male and eneter his teeritory so are you ……

But back to bed time , when you want to go to sleep so that tomorrow will arrive quicker so that you will be able to create and work toward your goals that next day , complete one more thing on your list of things to do ,,, ( make a list ….. it is your best tool to build what you want like a blue print for building a house is a vital toola so is your personel to do list ) ….. when you find yourself going to sleep wanting to listen to the old wisdown of ,,, early to bed and early to rise makes a man health wealthy and wise ,,, when those words become your truth , you are on your way ……. You are at theat point on the emotional guidance system scale where your , vibration and that vibration of the source energy are becoming in line and you will see and feel and taste * and smell the pussy ) of MAINIFESTATION.

And to manifest a compound an ALTERNATIVE , island of reality , a new choice of life style for your self and females and the children that WILL HAPPEN … the security and helpfulness of the sisterhood , the friendship ….. the idea of never WORKING BUT ALWAYS DOING THINGS YOU LIKE which people give you money for …. Think about how you feel about tomorrow as you go to sleep are you ,,, excited with the idea of SLEEP ? if not you are not excited about your goals in life …… get it dipshit?

love of sex , or the sex of love

Love of sex? Or the sex of love ?

Young master since your long term experience is not.. to say you have not had the time it takes for things to age in the mind and thus change , the experience you have now is different from the experiences you will have ,,,, but you will have them , just listen to the wise old advise about the changes in relationships …and if you would then ,, think with your own mind not the mind of PROGRAMING and expecting reality to live up to the articles written in magazines in the case of girls or the image imprinted on your mind by TV and movie .. but think from LOGIC ,,,,,, ahh but love and logic are supposed to be diametrically oppsosed ,,, no! they are not that again is the statement of the LOVE FAIRY TALE created a misconception of expectations .

Love is the action of creation of the territory the long term health and wellness of the family unit ….. ohhh but this is not sexy writing , you want to hear about dirivng your thumb deep into the pussy of a WANTING hot girl … and the moans of pleasure that will follow this pentration …..AHHHH LOGIC … cause and effect …. Not love. Yes logic , because the relaxed female after the stress of life is take out of the arena wants to relax in NATURAL HUMAN RECREATION , the pleasures of the flesh … and her flesh is sensitive to touch , when she is once relaxed no longer stressing g the MASLOW’S HIERARCHY OF NEEDS …. Then she can relax and enjoy the sensations of her tits and how they connect to the wetness of her pussy the punding of her growning clit which wants to be touched by a DIFFERENT HAND , the unexpected action of the touch of that different hand your hand . it is different thah her time of masturbating .
But young master as time goes on you , get lost in the stress of showing love thru sex , your animal may get confused by sex and love …. It is showing up now adays in sexual dysfunction of men in their 20’s men who now a days FEEL for the love …. And get confused .

When the truth is sex is sex and love is love …. Now the poly and www.instinctualism.org is about breaking up the fairy tale connection ,,, so that sex can once more be the natural HUMAN RECREATION it is and nature designed it to be . thus you will not create the stress and confusion and possible sexual dysfucnction . .

Her pussy and her body n general is a big pleasure toy .. once she changes her mind about sex and LOVE …. You also are a big play thing that expands when pleasured and touched … when you get erect the excitement of the girl growns as pride growns in her mind at what she is creating , but but but , the 1 on 1 can destroy this nature . and it does destroy tis nature time and time again with its confusing demand to tie love and sex together . LOVE IS when you create the 3 tents and a camel ideal … the territory the basis of stability then allowing for stress free living and more sexuall desire . because of the lack of life stress .

Then you can PLAY WITH HER PUSSY MORE OFTEN ,a nd playing with pussy is pleasant it is much fun to listen to her respond to my touch I get that pleasant rush in haering her sounds I say to myself I am doing that the pride grown and so does the hardness and thickness of my dick .. but if I am worrying about the love dysnaics of our relationship , the LTR aspects of our friendship then I get confused and I lose my hard on even though if iw ere to be jacking off where there is no Relationship stress I maintain very good hardness and thicknees …..the never a NO effect of fanasty ,,,, and girls just say well you are not working for the relationship ,,, WORKING nd stress not conducive to sexual recreation in her or me …. Oa spiting of concentration expressed in a deflaltion of and hard on !

I wonder if grisl can understand the 1 on 1 fairy tale they desire is in fact that which destroys that which the y call love . because of the DIVIDE AND CONQUER . does work so well …. And in conquering a male ….. he loses and she loses .

Somplex ideas for you to think about rmemeber I am not here to think for you but to bring up ideas for you to thinka bout for yourself . thin about the facts you love forcing fingers in to a wet pussy who is thinking aonly about the action of being fucking , she is not thinking about other ideas her focus is on what she is feeling … and she responds and feels and shows it in wetness and sounds , of being fucked . amd you too are then focused .

Compare your reality your experience with … well sicne there is not real discussion ro alternative modeling you have nothing to compare to ! bummer ….. in time young master in time ,, a few short months away …. Will be the instinctualism compound the BUILD IT AND THEY WILL COME … in fact you are invited to come over take a load off and explore your possible future ….. kinda like the www.lovemore.com does workshops to help you understand the reality of alternatives so will the 3 tents compound be there for your learning and thinking ….. a compound where the facts of sexual pleasure are as important as the facts surrounding love ….

sex in a bubble bath

Sex in a bubble bath

Young master , a hot bath is the better than drugs for you for her for both and all of you … if you do go down the poly road … my friend lets say it is a cold day what better way to re heat your core self than to soak in a good bath ? ever do it? Why not? I betcha because of your COOL your image , how you perceive yourself based on the images , the shoulds of others ,,,,, well that is fucked up and you call yourself MASTER , not master no salve to the whims of others , their ideas , for to be master is to travel the road less traveled …. Taking time ,,, dipshit in instead of spending time ….. you control your life if you want . that is the core of the 3 tents plan in www.instinctualism .org out of the rat race , the struggle to fit into the modle , creating a world where you are MASTER not economic slave …. And then you wi8ll RELISH the bubble bath and the hand job ….

Yes a nice pleasant play with MASTER’S DICK , hand job , lasting a long time bringing you to the edge over and voer , just playing with you like a toy …… just to see you shot your white cumm up in the air in the bath with 1 wife or 2 or 3 ….. what ever and how many ever you include in your BUBbLE … ahhh now another use for the word bubble , that space outside of the insanity of the world of regulars …. The bubble you create , yet ,,, what if a girl does not fit into the bubble well , she will feel her own path in time , trust , the TAO … if you are truly living like a toasit then you will show her hwe own bubble … encourage her to create her won bubble , aid her in this creation ….. as you travel your raod less traveled in your bubble . think dipshit about the bbubble of your up brining , and your current world , what is atround you ,…. Sleep with dogs wake with fleas …. But disphit do not blame ,,, no young master do not blame be thank full THANKFULL ,f ro they give you contrast things to compare to , so that new ideas cn be born new creations made , and infinty experiences itself as thing because of your choice to move to act based on the effects of contrasts you no longer want to experience …. Infinty KNOWS ITSELF . because the possible of you coming up with the idea was always a POSSILBE3 , but until you ,,, YOU AND ONLY you did it … was the reality of infinite possibility realized ? get that ? huh ? think dumbass ! enjoy bubbles !

Now after everything is done tis day the bath is over the hand job a pleaasnat memory and the good night puppy fuck just sweat on bodys of both of you two , what do you think as you go to sleep , rmemeber I so often talk about the COMPOUNDING effect of SUBTLE things the harem does provide a subtle effect for the girls in so many ways , positive ways especially for the kids of the family having the extra moms to lessen the stress on a ! mom by having 3 moms , the effect of a child in their own changes finding that person that day which BEST resonates with their vibrations their feelings that day ….. subtle things . like the feelings you have as you go to sleep , do you go off to sleep anticipating the adventure of tomorrow , in fact you can not wait to go to sleep so that tomorrow comes?

I am sure you have had days like that nights where you rushed to go to sleep so that tomorrow will come , and why is not every day like that? Why? Why is staying up late the activity when the freshness of a new day is not looked forward to ? the stale old smell in fact odor of a bar full of drunks is anticipated nmore than the freshness of a sunrise?how did you allow yourself to be programmed like this?

Well it probably again was the repeating of the life you had as a kid , where mom and dad got to sty up late! And so you to wanted this special event to be your reality …. Why did mom and dad think staying up late was so great and morning was so terrible ,,, they hated their lives and going to wrok ,,, work the service of humanity the creation of smiles their your effort the opportunity to create happiness by doing a good job ? ooooooh right ! they were not masters of their lives they were VICTIMS OF life ! LIKE YOU ARE BECOMING!THE ECONOMIC SLAVE …. The submissive to the woman in your life , the I LOVE YOU slave , collared with a wedding band … sublte compounding events ….

So how about altering thigns abit a and going to sleep thinking your won thoughts ? it is your life your body your mind ,, no one is there with a gun saying ,,, think as I say so , for I can read your mind your personel hidden anticapations ….. no one can read your mind but YOU ! IT IS YOUR PERSONEL BUBBLE

to Dodge or Ram a hot wet pussy

To Dodge or Ram a hot wet Pussy

Young Master , would you put this bummer sticker on your Dodge Ram Dueli ? “ If I wanted to hear the pitter patter of little feet I would put shoes on my dog “ well would you ? hmmm think honestly , the reason why you do not , is it because you honestly do not like little humans ? is it because you think it would scare off a prospective girlfriend ( hmmmm jumping thur hoops not expressing your current feelings so that you can get laid …. Mis representing yourself )

Now young master on average girls mature faster than men , mature in that they feel the urge to have a child , the deepest of DNA drives of lilfe ,,,,,, they depend on locating a stable male with a stable territory so that they can relax and then produce and raise 1 or more children in safety ,,, think about the animal nature and then compare the reality of human dating , and find the similarity ,,,, now mind you we human have PERVERTED …. Our instincts , because of the 1 on 1 laws enacted by Rome 1500 yeears ago ( not the whole of mankind but the ones under the control of rome ) why? I will write more later but with the question rooling around in your brilliant mind I amd sure you will find answers on your own …. You are no dumby , dipshit my firend .

Now for you , you are not focused on family at age 20 ,,,, while a teen you do your fairy tale dreaming during your practice dating your first few LOVES … actually very important bonding activity that if was natural ….. you would have left the early love of that girl to go out into the world build your territory then return to invite ( claim your love ) the female to see if she wants you still ….. but not now in the CONFUSING world of profit matierialism , and ecominc slavery ,, rmember the whole idea born by ROME was to use the bright and shiny , the greed of the lazy and drunk , to control the mass ,, and as ruler learned from the evidence of their army personnel use sex to control the male ,,, use sex to control the make ,,,, like the Bononbo female uses her sex to confuse the male in to peace ….. so we human learned to do the same thing ,, force the male into a 1 on 1 , keep him in a state of sexual stress at home a HOME AT WAR ….. is a male who can not focuc on the political machine and the crooks who use it ,,,,, like our current ….. right wing rome based chritian president ( roman based ? all christiamnity is Roma based or atleast Rome altered )

So young master ,,, if right now you are not focused on being a father /husband etc , that is normal ,,,, are you happy just getting laid on occasion and spenind the reast of your time humting and fishing ?

Ahhhhhh , good you are so normal ……. You throw the rock of unhappiness into the air , because dipshit , your DNA will speak to you shortly … theurge for something , more life will seem empty and you will search , to fill it ….. and the 1 on 1 Roman trap is your only option your programming is teeling you you have nothing else to model from . YET, you are a HAREM ape ,,,,, not a bonobo or chimp but much more like the gorilla

I speak from experience after rising to the top of my sport , Recreational Sport fishing in the wolrd wide center of the Sport Miami Fl. Having fishing lure factories in the Islands and my products and name being sold world wide , I found the emptiness creep in , I felt I needed something more ……….. then I looked to my model ….. my dad …. Some one who succeded at the fairy tale he and my mother were the 1 out of 100 who were happy all the days of their lives …. And form that Model comes comes me , promoting the HAREM the poly ….. why ? because I found out that it was a lucky fairy tale that they lived they were truly luckey and they knew it .

Think about your notivations right now young master ,,,, realize the learning , that you will CHANGE ! and prep for the Ttruth OF YOU DNA ….. life urges are strong you are a DNA ANIMAL ! you are not above the DNA which you expess life source energy thru …. Think dipshit think .

the golden touch of pussy

The golden touch of pussy

Young master ever heard the ad TRUST THE MIDAS TOUCH ,,,, it is from the car place right ?i was talking with womeone about her car and questimned her on her choice og service professional and all she could say is that while looking she saw the sing and remembered the jiggle the advertising she had heard her whole life and then turned in like a robot she turned into their driveway …… hmmmmm intereting how powerful a stupid little jiggle is … repeated over and over …. The 1 on 1 is a jiggle and something repeated so much that you act like a robot going towards it without deeply thinking about OPTIONS , and DAM IT ! think because you are based on the law of averages going down the road of DYSFUnCTION … personal stress and family stress and … this is very important for young ladies who may read , the child some day you want so much to love and cuddle to see her or him smile and coooo …. That child will have to deal with your STRESS AND ISNSANITY only because the choice you have made now to IGNORE THE POLY because and idea was repeated to a point that your brain could fathom nothing else.

Next to death ,,,, the fear of the fact …. I shoveled up once more one of my ferrel cats off the road …. And I felt sadness .. I sai to myself ohhhhh poor baby mamma cat …. She was one of the kittens now grown that looked just like mamma cat . and who was I to judge that the spirit of life the expression of infinte source that was experiencing living was not correct in it’s own personal choice to have that minute as theminute of the FACTUAL eventual ending ? who am I to judge ? to feel saddnnes ? why because again of my training my programming about death , the animal world does show a missing of a fellow traveler , the other cats came while was burying their friend and sister …… they knew she was gone …. And within minutes though life went on , that means bothering me for a hand out …. The circle of life , they doing their job , getting free food instead of hunting which they all do as evidence from the field mice bones I find … yet begging from me is also fun I guess . yet I feel sadness . in the loss of this wid cat . every living thing is alive who am I to judge one more alive than another ? is not a weed still life? A living plant ! now how and who chooses the things which will be programmed into your thinking ?

Who were the romans who crafted the bible from history to create such a wonderful creative way to control a varied group of populations they called an EMPIRE ? who but those who were PROFESSIONAL the learned , the book taught …. The product of programming …. The PROFESSIONAL , were trust the professional all to often to think for us because life is so complex , only complex dumbass because you let yourself get trapped into the materialism things … control you and separate you from your animal side that understands life is a circle friends come and go and SO WILL YOU !

Fancy fucking doctors
Give us their oppion and we accept their words ,, their ideas .. ideas of life of spirit of inteillgence , not unlike us , only one that choose to learn and study something different to become and expert in XY or Z … where I choose to become expert in window washing … to break the bond of PROGRAMING can oftern take ? ANGER ! Wow in my own personal anger ,,,o foimd step one of the climb up the emotional guidance system is to get angry find a plan and understand your won motives …. I can now open my eyes to what is already out there ….. the wide accepting variety all ready , studied by FANCY FUCKING DOCTORS here is something from a cool web site http://www.lovemore.com/news/QuickNews.asp

This presentation will be an experiential exploration of what it is we want when we talk about intimacy. People are often looking for ways to go beyond just talking about relationships. You will interact in groups of various sizes and experience new ways to be friendly/intimate with close friends and near strangers. We will look into ourselves to find what we mean when we say we are poly, swinger, or into BDSM or any other lifestyle we are exploring. You will be able to choose to take some risks, open yourselves to others, and have an opportunity to do some safe touching, and be touched, if you are ready. No one will be admitted after the workshop begins. Everyone will always be at choice as to how they participate, and what they share. Please dress in comfortable, loose clothing.
after you realize you have been force fed a fucking fairy tale since you were a baby , maybe you can feel more confident with outside ideas with the understanding that PRO’S accept the variety and encourage it . in fact train you in it ! atleast this time you are in control of your own PROGRAMING .

a bag of DOG SHIT

Bag of DOG SHIT

I must be doing something RIGHT ! young master you can not make all the people happy all the time ! now with me I want YOU TO THINK , I hope to generate thoughts ? any thoughts is better than having people just be blind deaf nad DUMB sheep following the programming of the media and religions . so when I just found a copy of my book in a zip lock bag filled with what looks like DOG SHIT ! I said to myself ….. self you must be doing something RIGHT !~ I got someone to feel to think to EXPAND their mind and emotions enough to express themselves in a GRAPHIC WAY . ( and smelly I am sure , I do not know because that is why god invented shovels to pick up things at a distance )

But think dumbass , if you are always jumping the the hoops of societies shoulds and ignoring your deepest feelings what does that feel like , does it feel like the depression you live in and hide frome thru recreation chemical use ,,, or even video gaming? Or whatever it is that you do that you hide in …. Finding something that you think you can be GOOD at ! jumping thru a hoop if you would realy look at the activity , and what is it that you are hiding from dipshit?

Ibetcha it is your feelings of frustration with the opposite sex , it is a constant topic of your life , a constant deep emotional stress , realize the truth young master , hell I do not care if you get this or not ,,,, I just want to give the opportunity to become happier to you ,,,, I do not depend on your happiness for mine . enjoy your adventure young master keep driving into that tree in the road of life ,,, the blonde tree , the brunette tree , the redhead tree ( this goes for girls also , guys have different colored hair and guys can create a lot of broken hearts and lies and problems ….. ahh but girl how about choosing next time SOME THING ALTERNATIVE ? HMMMM now that would be alternative to choose something alternative … now a boy covered in tattoos is not alternative no he is fashionable ….. )

Ohhh well atleast I know I have touched the heart of another human ! and they commucated directly with me ………. Your book is shitty ! ( I never said I was a good writer now did I ? lol )

a cig a joint a valium

A cigarette a joint a valium

Young master , when you get the idea of the Toa ,,, the idea that what you are seeing thinking about and feeling , this reality , that fells like a sild glass in which you can pour water and the water will stay confined … the hard ness of GLASS …..when you understand that the reality behind reality is UNREALITY , it is something we can not understand int his limited form of being form ,,,,, being inside a body . when you get it , the meta , of the idea of QUATUM PYSHICS ,,,, the idea of vibrations … being the deepest expression of THING .

But if we are I and I ,, if we are all the same of the same stuff , then how come we do not understand each other ,,, BECAUSE dipshit you came here to experience LIMITS ,,, you cam form the everything the vibration , to experience ILLUSION of thing .. of a stop ,, of a no ,, we all agreed to forget what is real , so that we could be experiencers of THING … I had to forget that in me in each cell of me , is ME ,, an awareness equal to me , that I depend on for this human body to function ……. So that I can have this adventure of being some fancy human …. Now when you get this

You are outside of the agreement ,,,, well at least the agreement of some ,, because osme want to really live limited , to be bound by ,,,, the idea that a glass is solid real and unchangeable …. OK GREAT HAVE FUN , but look at the evidence trail of the lives of those people on average , not the fairly tale , ideals of their beliefs but the day to day working of the people who live that way …… and you will find the need for CIGARTTES , JOINTS AND VALIUM , to suppress their spirit who wants to express itself in the body to think outside the fairy tale of limits …. But tha breaks the agreements and to insure the agreements of LIMITED AWARENESS survivies your kill your self with mind NUMBING DRUGS …..

Your personal EMOTIONAL GUIDANCE SYSTEM ….. telling you where to go for you , but you fear that human nature is evil you fear youself that you will be SELFISH in the eyes of others … living in shoulds … when in fact your DNA is one of love and protection , for tha whole you , direct family in fact even the whole city tribe culture even you have feelings for all of life every where , you feel for animals dogs and cats …… you honestly feel for everything …. Human nature is basically loving ,,,,

So why fear being selfish in following your guidance system ,, and dumbasss realize that the feelings you have today , will CHANGE ,,, they will evolve as you learn more ,,, you couold be adamant about the idea od LOVE and Romance and th 1 on 1 ….. and if you listen to your sould the VIBRATING of the quatum particles of your being … over time you may evolve into and INSTINCTUALIST …. Thinking outside the agreement of limits of IMPOSSIBLITY . finding reason that things are impossible look for them reason and you will find , hey how about looking at the equal truth about your own life …. The reason why it is not working for you or the people you know , how about looking equally at that , as you judge the ideas of others , and guess whay you will find reasons why your current life is wrong

Well no life is WRONG it is just adventures ,,,,,, and you can not experience that type of life without living it ,,, walking in the shoes of one who believes and lives ,, that agreement , that limit …..

But when you expand dumbass , you may have a hard time interacting with the limited ones …. You may have to lie , to keep old friendships ….. but feel it dumbass , when you want to live like them ,,, when you need that BEER JOINT of Valioum …….ahhhhh whay are you doing? Why is that chemical life more fun than real if what changed in you ? think young master think

Looking into cleavage

Looking into Cleavage

Why young master are you interested in TITS? WHEN YOU are without regular pussy and you repeat cerertain sexually frustrated patterns of thinking during masturbation maybe you even convince yourself that titties are something that some how fulfills YOU , when in fact dipshit ,,,, it is about her!

Again I want you to keep the image of the silver back gorilla male the protectrive nature that is you , the you that just does not VIOLATE every woman you see at any time , the good average man who does respect NO . you only get PUSSY when the pussy wants to be GOTTEN … and there is a direct line between her tits and the wetness of her pussy …. Ok this is evidence of the MUTATION of us as an ape … we are the only ape with such latge engorged TITS even when the female is not feeding young …. Her tits are hard wired to make her pusy wett , yes big tits talk to you saying that female can feed her young and will give you kids , so over our warfare eveolvution years these last 10,000 years of living in greed that we learned fron PHAROH , you kept women you won by war based on first glance …… love at first sight

Ohhh here I go again destroying the fairy tale …… laove at first sight based in the spoils of warfare , deciding which would become a tent slave good for sex and which would be used up in the fields as a worker slave .. one who would die leaving no DNA trail because they were worked to death quickly ,, while the girl who looked the part of a good Puppy would be kept young and fresh for the tent your pleasure .

Now realize something dipshit ,,,, get a movie ,,,, HE WAS A QUIET MAN … and realize the truth behid ,,, the old words of wisdom about the state of modern man ( these words are 100’s of years old ….. ) man lives in a state of silent desperation …… look for the section and that beautiful cleavage and then realize the current state of sexual MANIPLULATION ,,,,,, later when the hero is playing with titties , think about it …. When you play with tits you actually do it to get her hot ,,,, AHHH to get her ready relxed to get her to be like the female gorilla wanting to be fucked ….. getting yes not a NO . that is what titty love is all about , not that the feeling of a nipple makes you feel great no it is her reactions her response and relaxtion and opening , her wetness driving her … and then allowing you to act ,,, to fuck ,,,

Some women think that titty love is about males , reliving their mother hood connection , WRONG , when your male girls starts to think of you like MOM , he is then responding to you as a CONTROLER , and that will kill his desire for you ,,, again go back to what I have wrtiing about CONTROL AND COHERCIEN . and rmember it is not my words but the wors of experts ,,, like I say dipshit , I am also a dipshit ,,,, look at the words of POr’s and think , feel for yourself , not just floolow blindly the SHOULDS … but get the pearls of wisdom and trash the rest …. No you do lust for tittties because you are looking for mommy , you do not want to fuck your mother ……. You lust for tities to excite the female to get the sounds that she does love and desire you ,,, the animal sounds , the non verbal commucation of WIGGLES AND WETTNESS ….that say the truth ,, she loves you like she DNA is designed to …. She wants you sexually. Everything else is fairy tale shit very changeable and forgettable .

a beer a day

A beer a day

Ahhh young master when I saw myself wanting a beer a day for 3 days in a row , I knew I was in trouble , the beer deadens the emotions ….. the emotional guidance ,,, the dance of life ,,, my own personel feelings ,, not what others think is good , ( which may have merit , but it is not my ,, MY path ….. you are taught very young to ignore your path in favor of the RIGHT path that your parents and teachers tell you ,,, the fairy tale of SHOULD )

Ok Deb and I most weeks do drink a beer after Jammin in Jensen her work night …… but that is it , but I found myself joining in with everyone else in the drinking the hididig of feelings the next night , and the an other night … why very complex , but the action was a signal to me , Phil you are going somewhere you had been before ,, and a place that will kill you in darkenss and depression … no fun I like fun . so I had to admit …. To myself there was a very deep problem with Deb and I

A simple problem but a deep problem , it is called LOVE ….. we each care for the other and want to be loved for who we are , wheich is good enough ,,,, but each of us has a PATH ,, and our paths are different … bummer ! commucation ahh now that can be ahrd a problem for many for all of you actually dependant on expectations of the response of the other person who you will commucate with , the expectation formed by the past commucations …. Valid expectations .

Yet contrast is important the rain is not as fun a s a sunny day yet it is nneded to have rain to keep things growning and going …. Ahhhh I can finally breate again I can write again , I can be proud of the ideas I spew out to the world to see and think about even if I am insulting … insulting does do something I forces people to look at themselves form a adifferent angle ,,, and I trust that most people see the pain ths spawned the words not just the words …… in knowing the paom pf one MAN you can understand the pains and confusions of many men ,,, who CONFORM hide in that BEER …. To end that feeling , done for so many days weeks months years to the point they lose contact with their own emotions …. Their path , their deepest inner GOOD MAN NATURE , the DNA of the protective harem male …..

The paim and confusion cause THE TIWSTED INSTINCT …. And the good man becomes the bad man .. the lousy male … the guys so may girls have to date because they have no other ALTERNTIVE … I cn now return to writng and openly talking about alternatives becaue I listened not to the WELL MEANT SHOULDS , but to the evidence that I was ignoring my feelings my own path . and commucated in the way I was able to … with Deb .

Did I cause her pain and discomfort , does that slap the face of the protective harme male which is my instinctual self , that wants so much for my female to be safe a nd protected and loved and happy ,,, YES ,,,, my words hurt her made her life stressful , but only because to her my PATH is ALTERNTIVE … not one she realy wants in her life , not needed ….. that is fine , I do not ,, do not …. Want my ALTERNATIVE to be a should but a choice ….. well I write now becaue we have cchoosen to sepreate our paths …. Each supporting and loving each other yet knowing in a very short matter of weeks we will separate pyshiclly to each walk our own paths ,,,, friendship and love and good wishes for each other . and honestly the deepest of hopes that each will porve their own path to be a good ALTERNATIVE in the KITCHEN OF THE UNIVERSE ,, something of use to themselves and others . aSOLUTION to something instead of just aceepting reality as a reality .. saying NO , there is hope to live outside of the shoulds . what are your shoulds young master ,,,, feel them ! do not drink them away ,,, your shyness in dating is evidence of your TRYING TO LIVE IN A SHOULD ! … a complex realizing if you can really ,,,,, think about it .

shifting fucks

in many ways ALTERNATIVE WAYS ...... basic instinctual ways ? the nature of DOM/subbie sex the nature of feeling great at what is natural for you ? open your mind feel the pains do not resist the real , move from it it and SHIFT.........

a sideways fuck

A sideways fuck

Like always young master I use sex as the eye catcher , but you know the content is more about an relationship or life issue that I believe you should think about , think dipshit my friend . becaue again the pleasure of great sex , all the different ways in which you can make your girlfriend CURL HER TOES , in extascy … is wonderful for you and her , so try fucking her in so many unnatural directions … the way you hard cock forces that pussy to stretch and be pushed ,,,, will open her eyes in lust for more and

And why ? here it is me , exploring my world once more , WHY ? during our talk of a few days ago Deb described jumping thru hoops ,,, well she reads my blogs , not every day but over time ,, so that she is not in fear of my , but she does have and idea of my thoughts generally ,,, so when I start to explore topics ,,, like friendhship and I love you …… as I am trying to figure out why our 1 on 1 always seems to fall apart and I look at the feelings I am going thru ,, well she changes herself ,, in any , and all attemps to make me happy … like I said she is a very good girl and nice person .

But the ATTEMPT was ignoring what I was also writing about the poly dynamic the MULTI FAWCETTED subtle dynamics of sisterhood by choice outside of city life each with a personel desire for the life style , not forcing themselves into but sold on it by themselves not by …me?.. well Debs attempts I thank her bur what was going on dep in her what were her deepest whys ,,,, what list os NO’s was exploring …. She explored the poly she tried meeting girls online but there was just Wrong MoJo with it …. And I she says that I sid she was going to fast back then she was a head of me making me feel uncomfortable ? dam I wish I could remember exactly why I said that …… see with my writing because I have no ONE else’s life explored in relationsip books like we have for the 1 on 1 ,, the bools after bools on how to make a 1 on 1 work ,, we do not have anything about the HAREM or POLY ,,,,,

The great sex of the MAKE – UP period ,, deb and I have gone thru a couple of periods of great make up sex …. And for me , I an happy to look back 20/20 and see , it was not just Deb and I who had this but every LTR I had experienced these events ,, and I am sure inher life she experienced the same patterns in her past … we all do . I AM NOT SPECIAL OR DIFFERENT . only that I will do my best to explore it openly not just accept ….. ROMANCE … the fairy tale … all pretty and true … LOVE IS REAL … and I believe I will love each girl very deeply llll ohhh the word RO man CE ,,,,, Roman …. The change that Europe noticed in the sex life of culture and found it to be the change of the RICH …. The fairy tale … the roman’s

Who broke apart UNCONDITIONAL love in to GREED and subtle controls , again you gotta look and understand the history of relationhip dynamics polictics of sex …. The wife of Caliguala … examples …. The events of your life ,, the ups and downs of the BLISS of your sex life and love … is history …. Do you really realize the REPETITION of themes …..l the harem is basd in INCONDITIONAL love …. And freedom of choice .it is not the salvery we have been trained to think it is , remember that ,,,, often what is written or talked about is the BAD NEWS the DIRTY LAUNDRY …. The 3 % un common ,,,, like news event sof today , which hisroty will use to JUDGE , this age will be tainted by ,, the extremems of what is recorded ,….

What is recorded is the story which will get attention ,,, the regular life is boring we , needed ,, to have great storys to attract atttntion so that the TRAVELR the trader ,, who years ago went for camp fire to camp fire , buysin selling and trading , could ENTERTAIN , people ,,,, with stories fo the terrible , the extreme …..

It is kinda like my sex …. Luckly Deb is a lover of varying sex ,,, more so than other girls ,,, I worry sometimes that girls who read my stuuf , and will read it , and then say I do not want to meet phil ,,, his sexual tastes are to extreme for me … but rmemeber my sexual tastes is for to get the climax for my lover ….. her JOY and bliss drives ,,me it drives you ,,, we do whay they want more than it is that we have to have the events exactly what we do as much as it is the ORGAISMS that we search for those animals sounds coming out of the girls … and for each girl a different set of actions may be needed or succesfull in creating the sounds out of her …

Deb says that … i am so luckey to have met her … when I did , and I am so luck y to have had the great variation of relationship events while with her ,, the pains of our stress …. I feel for her ,, hell I feel for my own pains but , it is these that are OUR LIVES … the remeinders we all have aor are going to be experiencing common themes . and then to explore the truth ,,, not the happy ending of a movie where the love WINS …. Remember it is a movie ,,, but love is REAL but just not a movie …. So when you have a chnce young master to explore your NO’s

Ahhh the current pleasure of holding Deb . to feel her presence ,,,, then to know at the same time I WILL sell this house , the house she and Julie ARE GOING TO arrange to live in like it will be there’s forever and I worry each and everytime I write that I hurt them …. And I worry about my love fore DEB …. Not that I will not love her but her expectations ,,,, will she feel that it is a lie ,,, but I must now realize the freedom of choice fo DEB to think one way when the reality of me is the other ….. two different rockets of desire …. All I want is for her to realize what is her deepest NO’S AND KNOW’S …

Like ester says ,,, Abraham – Hicks … if you got 2 choices and both kinda are good and bad ,, well choose one and make that path a GOOD path , find the bliss in it ,,, concentrate on tha bliss ,,, it is what I do , I see bliss in and beauty in the 1 on 1 love story of course ,,, but , take that bliss in the poly also … I compare the lifes tlyes based on whatever evidence I can think of and then create the GOODS of the harem …. Amking it the best of the 2 paths ,,,,, from the outside it sems like I am trashing 1 on 1 ,, but no , I say go for it if youw ant , but when it becomes the Repeat ….. really think. I sure ain’t no professional but atleast I have tried to explore whatever I live OUT OF THE CLOSET DOORS ….

a great fuck

A great fuck

Young master the stress of a fight can create the opt of great sex , now that I will ink to the history of your DNA later but let me expose my life , my folly ….. my real problems because the THEME’s are ones you will ,,, yes you will live ….. and to find that me and my DEB each created our own pains ….

For Deb she did a classic female thing ,,, say hse wants one thing and expect me to do otherwise because of my GREED for her ….. she wanted a fairy tale response frome and got , and true deep loving response , real unconditional …… and we had one hell of a fight because ….. we here understand your mind dipshit ,,,, the building of Assumptions because of INTUITION … ( I was wrong but not as wrong as I could have been )

Mostly true

Young master ripping yourself apart is not easy and not perfect but do it .

Deb , I am sorry I caused you pain , accept it or not , I did go to Michelly’s to see if you arrived , just in case you had a n acceident and that is why you did not answer your phone and when I saw that you were safe I left , mad.
Now when Julie compared last night my re- actions to the feelings and things that happen .. I reply here and now , when I leave because of a fight , I feel they are different , leaving after a fight is escaping a trap so that no more hurt will be created.

Ok , would the events that I will write about , have happened in a poly family. Would I have had the support of other sisterhood to go over my ideas and feelings over the last few months and upon coming acrross what I READ as XYZ ,,, when coming back home from finding that you were safe , I would have had some one to talk to when I got home last night and I could depend that person or persons on to talk to you , to tell you why I feel XYZ …. Think about that young master .

I say last few months , you re- assure me over and over that you will try my life style to come , you re peat that you may leave … and I say over and over all I want is your happiness ( last night I was hurt but I left after Proving your safety .. left you to your happiness , without conflict .

We both love each other we will indure certain pains to help the other be happiest they can be in the end for them …

Michelly is she your friend or your lover , and will you hide a relationship from me ? . YES you will will you do something I would not like and hide it , kind of hide the activity as not to hurt me ,,, yes you will , THANKYOU , FOR CONSIDERING MY FEELINGS , and understand that I say nothing because of my love for you … you must have freedom to choose options without stress . (Shelly is single sexually experiemental in that she has choosen to experiement outside her race and of the age to be expected to be bi-sexual , no one is an angel I am not you are not our kids are not)

Yet I must admit to feeling USED at times , ( hell I am no angel I have feelings I am sure you feel hurt about my not finding you my 1 and only ) but I suppress what I can till I create the compound that I believe will allow me to be more openly truthfull and allow you to be the most truthfull you cn be , not , half in 1 on 1 and half Harem like we live now ….

When dancing came up , I expressed my feelings , so you told me you were going to a concert , leaving me and what we had planned to go with michelly , to an other show , ok , but it was when you talked later about dancing of course ,, my mind ,,, changed the whole event in my memeory into an event that equates with … pain .,,,,,,, you go to a choclate party , and do not come home for hours late ( I do not freak , you safe and local ) but when I hear HEMMINGWAYS ….. my idea about the night changes …….. the sound of the I love you’s I hear when you talk on the phone to Shelly at times sound ???? …like the I love you’s of lover to lover … after what can be seen as untruthfulness so far in reality of actions , the sleep overs , the push for a sleep over in fact .. almost stressfull when brought up in your voice … well become the cheating , male or female it is still cheating face to face flesh to flesh ,,, real person to real person , emotional support and friendship to emotional support and friendship … your happiness is what is most important , the words I repeat to myself at every hurt . ….. ok I cheat when I jack off ? you were gone I and used picturesthe movies we have to cheat , yes …. But a shell of cheating but cheating …

now after there was a GOOD LOGICAL change in our trip for XMAS …. A good change I was and am happy for you . ( young master men read sports illustrated , car and driver field and stream ,,, women read woman mags look at the covers the topics ,, the soprt of girls is to understand men and look pretty so …… my READERS ARE GIRLS . yet I am very happy when I see some guy down loading 100’s of pages of my work … but still on friends lists stie after site 99 perecnt are girls )
I request female readers ….. site after site … just to open my reader base and I hope with the opening of the female minds the TALK between male and female can happen a … girls can delvelop new ROCKETS of desire because of my words .

So weeks ago after the change in our trip ,, when I went to do a Browse , and I found that the last Browse on the search was for MEN in their 40’s in Colombia SC. …. I honestly got hurt , and felt used . the manipulation about dancing ealier in the month was enough the wondering whether Shelly was Deb’s lover was growing already , yet my concern is and was , for your ending happiness with or without me . just be happy … but I start to feel lied to and used and played , LIKE A FOOL . but I remeind myself over and over your happiness is what must me most important your future with or with out me , build a life for you here I try , with or with out me your happiness ,,, I see myself writing more about young master being alone for 15 to 18 months , that is me prepping for living alone with 3 homes some where , while I create ways to talk face to face some day to the world . . that way young master does not get into the problem what I am living in .. loving and caring for a woman who is lieing , but I still want her happiness so , I suppress it ….. what if she comes back saying but you miss understand what was happening , what will I do ,,, ? say I am worng sure what ever so that she feels … happy I will say whatever I think she wants to hear . the 1 on 1 efect .

So that , knowing that she is looking for now , not just a female lover her and dancing here with other men ( dancing is sexual to me it is her with other men in a mating ritual ) but planning to meet men in Columbia … maybe she is planning to return to live close to her family smart idea ,,, I want her to be ahppy …. I suppress it . for weeks and all the time she is gone . up there … meeting who she has planned to meet …….

So when I find her safely in town after a long trip , yet not thinking about calling cell or home line ,,,, I BREAK . and lock her out of the house . who knows maybe she wanted to ……. Spend the night with her lover ? when I drove past her lovers home earlier after worrying that she was an hour late already with no call and I see all the lights on at that house ,, I wonder is she there already ? , then when I go to make sure whether she arrived safely in town … to see whether she is safe and find the lights out … and that Debbie was there… I can think only that what the evidence trail has ,, given me to think … she is with her lover after being with some other guys in Colombia …. And in my hurt I lock the door just in case …. She does come home , she will understand there is a PROBLEM … we will have to talk some how , some time ….

Not fight but talk …… becaue I do want her to be happy with or without me … but I feel manipulated , and used ,,, but I allow it because I want her to be ahppy .. but what and how would this have palyed out if these last few months had gone on while she and I were sharing our lives with , other girls who by CHOICE , were together as a HARME family . would I have had the support of the other females who cared about me and cared about Debbie … to help me feel happier about Debbie’s actions on her own behalf to form the ROCKETs of her desire and then put her human foot forward toward that rocket ….

But alone in the 1 on 1 ,,, not only myself but Debbie ,, we both have to lie to each other because we both honestly care about each other , but me must also , do what we must do to make ourselves happy while , tryiin ,, trying to create a life where the other is happy as long as possible .

Young master can you feel this in any thing from your past ? guess what it will happen again and again …. Women wonder why we males ,, eventually blow up and get mad about them having affairs and it is the evidence trail that our male minds READ ….. men and women are different … over and over I repeat that theme … and in the 1 on 1 ,,,it will come to a stressful head on fight .

Now that blog should have been posted yesterday , but because of an agreement between DEB and I things like that will not be published without discussion , and actually using the writing was my way of …. Forming what I wanted to say to her …. Her response was to , tell me in her way , what I heard , was that she was hurt , she had tried so hard for so long to be the BEST ,,, she had jumped thru my hoops … etc etc .. etc ….and it worked I felt terrible about her being sad ,,, the TEARS effects , the weapon of the female ,,, it works they know it ,,,.so . everything changed and the discusiion turned around to how terrible I am …kinda ? terrible for not seeing her as being good ,,,
I NEVER SSAID SHE WAS NOT A GREAT BEYOND COMPARABLE TO . woman or that I did not love her very deeply ,,, unconditionally like in the blog and romantically as a possession /greed ( YET I SUBDUE THAT LOVE of greed in favor for true unconditional love )

She asked to stop at her friends house , but deep inside she wanted me to be GREEDY and say NO COME HOME I MISS YOU ….. so she set up the conditions that ended up in me being hurt and the door being lockied and us feeling more confused …… all events that help each of us with the 5 points got to www.instinctualism.org .. the 5 things you do to clarify your real wants in life . .. she wanted an expression of fairy tale love all the while receiving the long lating truest deep cuncondtional love …. Of humanity .

Now on her defense , she is not in an affair ,,, with either a male or female ,,, even though she does admit to talking about starting a bi-sexual affair but her friend was not interested …. Hmmmm interesting was my INTUITION picking up then on that ? sycronicity they say ? the male search was for an old sick friend … OK fine . but the dancing part , the make effect on me , she reminded me I said OK about it 2 months ago , she also reminded herself it I did effect me even to say OK , it was a painful day …. But yesterday because the reply she gave me was mainly about how much she had tried to prove her love for me ,,, we never touched on the topic …. Of hiding her nights of going dancing ,,, I write about it as LIEING which makes a person defensive …. Later that day I heard a country song about , a guy getting locked out of the house because of his girl thinking he was cheating ( which he was ) … so I felt a little better about my choice to lock her out when I was feeling that she was cheating . a common reaction I guess ….

But after we talked , I must admit I do lover her …. I have since the first day I sw her … I still ,, I did while I thought she had a lover … only ever do I want her to find happiness and peace .

She admits to knowing that I would take the sign out of the yard , to stop my progress toward a POLY life to prove my love for her ,,, but in time because of life stress it would creep back into my thinking and we would fight …….

Wow ….. the complexity of the Roamantic love … vs a love deeper and more real …. Of being HUMAN . of really loving not wanting control .she jumped thru my hoops she reacted to my blogging ,,, in attempts to ? to do what I do not know ? she already has my deepest love and trues concern for her happiness , what is the real deepst problems between us ? why jump thru hoops ? whay do I feel like I do ? they META – spiritual community tell us to feel our INTUITION .. because there is some truth in it ,,, as with me the details were wrong but the truth maybe in ….. the deepest of her desire to have me , love her Romanitcally not HUMANly …hmmm?

But as the fight/discussion went on ,,,, my desire for her grew , and when we hugged she smelled sexy , it was very HOT … so I later let the realization of the study of stress in apes ,,, and during stress , the female produces more stress hormones in the form os SUBMISSIVE sex hormones , the fight ends in fucking ……… hey we humans still do , that post fight sex is often the strongest and most intense .

I let her love me ,,,, I let her love me …. I did not try .. she led me by the hand , she kissed me , she undressed me , she sucked my dick with passion that I felt so deeply … she rode me … she came for herself and because of her want for peace with me …. She wanted me … and we had sex ………. The same fact as always it is because of her wants that sex , happens … we still respond to sexual scents … it is not about …….. words … or games …. Of I LOVE YOU …. Test of your love will only confuse everything ,,, young master you prove your love with the Teerritoy ….. yet she wants more? And in the end we all lose everything . and fight until the animal nature kicks in … and we have great sex … the bandiad that covers up the problem till NEXT TIME (ohhh next time is coming , you can bank on that )

fucking or friendship

fucking or friends

Young master , remember this fact of your pasts , when you got a new girlfriend what were you doing most oftent with that new JOY TOY? Huh? Honestly if you were to compare the time you used to psend out fishing or hanging with the guys your friends ,,, you were now spending that time licking pussy ? the sound of her pleasure gave you EMMENSE highs of feeling powerful , and when you fucked her after getting that pussy good and hot … and she got excited begging GOD for more ,, thanking GOD for being a girl once more ….. when she was like that did you wish you were hanging with your friends?

I mean you will be forced tne next day to go to work and hang out with dirty hariy smelly men …… your Buds … yep great I will spend 40 hours week with you ,,, but I would love to spend the other other hours fucking and later if that fucking brings about babies , you will love just watching that baby smile as they explore the safe world you created for it . and later you will fuck the mother of that baby again ,,, enojoyint the realization she has that …..she likes getting fucked … in fact THANKS GOD ….over and over ….

So when I realize reltaionahip after real;tionship that she becomes my social life …. I cool man …..i got it I am socializing with my buds with males hour after hour in my work ….. after work I do not want that , I do not want to hang out with guys drunk at a bar …..BUT WHY DO girls feel that you gotta go hang with your friends …socialize with your buds like girls do ….. OHHHH this is after the 1 on 1 coolls ,,, after she cools …. When in fact you should be fucking your other wives ….. the cooling down is normal in the 1 on 1 …

That fast and furious sexual activity of the beginning of our common relationships is result of sexual frustration being released , sometimes it is the sub conscious effort of the female animal to HOOK a male …. Sometimes planned by a woman …. Often just the sexual relaease of our sexual repressions ,,, remember the Bonobo chimp we are not totally like them yet related they have sex every 2 hours on average …. Day after day after week after year ,, fucking or atleast engaged in sexuala ctivitys every 2 hours ,,,, eat , play ,, touch . gorillas also very touching eat play tlk and touch groom , and be sexuall a lot also you are not exactly Gorilla in all aspects nor chimp nor bonobo , you are human , yet you are DNA an APE ….. look at our bones …

So , when a girl thinks the way to stabilize her cooling down relationship is to get her male involved in outside friendships once more like she is now doing ……….. she is again fucking up …. The girl needs that socialization much more that LONE MALES , she for 3.3 million years lived in a harem … I got together with other males and counted spears and counted buffalo ,,,, we were silent hunters ,,, cleaned and butchered the game animals , then went home to fuck our wives ….. me to my tents circle my brother father cousin or friend to his tent circle …. Dam to many girls just for get the NaTURE of nature . WHY because we have forgot that we are DNA part of the natural world we are not ,,,, some exclusive creation of god outside of the world we live in …. Like we have be PROGRAMED to believe .

Programming you while you were young to the point that an Educated teacher can not use the word EVOLUTION but has to say ,,,, biological changes over time ….. biological changes over time … in fact if the teacher uses a word that mean just that ,, the PROGRMED , classroom police ,,, the christian youth will , report the teacher to the GESTAPO ….. young master you and your age has been sutly programmed mind control , repeated with the Fairy tale as its evidence ? that is evidence … a story created to divide and conwuer OCCUPIED cultures that Rome wanted to absorb …. The sme tools used today

Think about the Collesium sports football ,,, the galidators entertaining the population while they poising themselves with drug ( beer ) into mindless Zombies , easy to create sublte control over populations that will follow the lead of greedy ,, the rules who generation after generation rise from the general populations ,, that 1 percent who think more about their ownselves than for the common good , actually they represent a birth defect …. A percentage that does not think first about total welfare but their own welfare first . think about history disphit ….. freedom of shoice is just that and you have the right to choose to act create a life outside of the common effects of general programming …. If you want to .

ooooh ate

Ooooh Ate

Young Master , what will this year be for you , what was the last year …. Didi you begin the process of Id’ing your personel NO’s ,,, how can you KNOW you wants … with ouNO’ing your .. don’t wants ?and to do that you gotta think dipshit ,,, and I hope in my small way I have brought new ideas to your brain …… those neww ideas will effect you in this new year …. Of forming ROCKETS OF DESIRE … resuts of saying NO

The whole idea of coming from the ALL possible into an experience of limited possible …. Is based on the use of …. NO ….. saying no to experiencing everything always all the time simultanioulsy ,,,, you said NO to that some years ago ,,, you said NO to remembering the facts of BEYOND PYSHICS …. So that you could have experience like being an HUMAN ANIMAL …..

Do you now remember that you are an NAIMAL a DNA animal , and with that built into your cell structure something deper than the FAIRY TALE of your programming ,, can you feel ? Feel the NO’s and from them the Rockets of Desire ?

For me ’06 was opening my eyes still ,,,,, form the Dream state , the fairy tale ,,,, ’07 was testing ,,,, and finding that the theory of 05 and 06 were credible … there was something to my DNA instincts … 07 has been a great year a wonderful year filled with real LOVE and REAL family learning ,,,,, now from the NO’s experienced in 07 … the YES’s of 08 are being LIVED .

’08 . buying a Tango ,,,, my broken toy ,, my concept car ,, the HIGH EFFIECIENCY SMALL FOOT PRINT TRANSPOTATION DEVISE …. An ESFPTD …… that is as hard to say as the other . I am happy with my 7000 dollar purchase my green statement ,,, explore it for yourself at … www.rtmgroupinc.com …. Next is the fact of me …leaving the fairy tale of happiness thru money ,,, yes money is important but …. It is not real happiness , the high of spending and buying are just drugs ,,,, the use of money to create , stability allows for the baic happiness of the NALSOS HIERACHY ON NEEDS to kick in there by allowing more stable happiness to flourish ….. is ALLOWED … the understanding of my happiness is in the creation of the stable territory , … the ALLOWING …. Of love to come to me , if she WANTs TO …… not trying … but allowing . I do my MALE JOB ,,,, and then ALLOW m life to reward me .

still of course the programming creeps in , I have been trained well …. I feel the pain of the loss of 200,000 dollars of PAPER profit , but , I have to remember times when my sticls had crashed and I lost tons’s of money , …. When my companies got destroyed and the insurances I banked on failed me …. Depending on others for my happiness …. Hmmm the core of co-dependance … so ingrained into our lives we do not even realize it ? so to cash out …… is to really cash it

the change in my house hold expenses , will cahgnge so dramatically as to realize a return on investment a recovery of the 200,000 in paper losses to be recovered in reality or paper again ,,,,, with in about 6 years not a bad return on investment . The decrease in stress level , because I will no longer try to make a woman happy ……. Try to make her happy ,,, as much as give her the security that she has the OPPURUTUNITY finnaly to create her own LTR , deepest true happiness and friendship and family structure and examples …. Showing to her own family her own offspring that other options in living are available ……… and … she has the freedom ,,, to TRY THEM ,,, not ofrced to live them ,,, but allowed thru my choice to create , not the OPPURUTUNITY ,… to try something that was not AVAILBALE BEFORE …………….. ME .

this is ’08 ………. Becoming what I feel is the tures of my male nature , like the silver back gorilla …… and most other harem males , the protection of a stable territory ,,, then recieivng the thankyou fo the family … which is the smiles and laughfter of safe healthy children …. The sexual desire of … comfortable unstressed females who freely choose to live in the territory of the DOM MALE ….. the female unstressed able and desiring to enjoy the reall HUMAN RECREATION …. What is real recreation ,,,, RE – creating … how do humans re – create? What does the basic animal find pleasurable .? before TV ? before the creation of BEER , or shopping malls ? and larger bank accounts ? what was RE creation to the human anmimal 3.3 million years ago ,,, what is STILL FUN and desirable to do today for FUN …… what ? sex
( npr today ,, real human foods , are green leaves and fruits , with seeds and meats for seasons of lack – winter , seeds and meats which evolved into the diet of warfare , and soldiers because of ecomonics of armys , eventually the food industry of today where we purchase food like produscts )